Friday, 7 January 2011

Testimony Friday

This is a wonderful testimony I found online by a woman called Victoria. It moved me and I hope it blesses you as well :)
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Jesus Always Loved Me” I have died, but Christ lives in me. And I now live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave his life for me. “

[Galatians 2:20 CEV]

I wanted to share with you my story I was born again 19 years ago, you may use my story how you wish or just read and delete.

Adopted at 12 months old, to parents who were more dysfunctional then most. My father was a career drug addict and my mom would tell me how much she didn’t like me. My father did love me till I was about 7 then he delved more and more into his drug cocoon to escape the wife he did not love. There was a lot of emotional, mental and physical abuse. They adopted another child a boy and a year later she gave birth to a son. I ran away the first time when I was 11 years old.

At 12 I was taken away and put in a foster home, at 13 I ran away and lived on the streets of Oceanside California, where at 13 I was raped by 7 men, became a drug addict and drank whenever possible. At 16 I tried to commit suicide, at 17 I got married to get off the streets we moved to Maine. Unfortunately he was an abusive madman, so again I ran away. I joined a traveling carnival to escape certain death.

At 19 I was strangled and left for dead, at 20 I was locked up in the house of a drug dealer who striped me of any self esteem I ever had……I wanted to die………..at 22 I ran off with a man and found myself in Washington where again I was surrounded by drugs. The mother of my boyfriend at that time invited me to go to church with her, I agreed to go, I can’t tell you what the singers sang nor what the sermon was about but I remember as soon as the preacher started preaching I started uncontrollably crying and I didn’t know why. In my life I had tried everything from white Magic, Buddhism, and Jehovah Witness. In Washington I met a man named John, who like me was just as lost, but boy was he the most handsome man I ever met.

At the age of 23 I hated the life I was living and I knew there had to be more to this life then what I was living! So John and I set out with nothing but the clothes on our backs…We bid farewell to the lies, the drugs, the pit of emptiness that we lived in, and we had a plan we were going to hitch hike to California then to New York and start a new life…………Well we made our way to a lil town in Northern California by Redding, and while waiting for our next ride we noticed an elderly couple sitting in a car marked “Caution Wide Load” we thought nothing of it.

The old man got out of the car came over to us and asked us if we knew Jesus. I told him “I’m cool with Jesus” and John said “I’m mad at God for letting my father die in my arms.” He told us God loves us and cares about us, the old man introduced himself as Russell Mc Connell and his wife he told us was named Carol. We told him our story and our plans, he asked us to come to his house for a home cooked meal before we left town (John wanted to visit his Grandpa that lived not to far from where we were at) We told him we may do that. Russell gave us some money to eat so we went to the dinner near by ate then caught our next ride.

Things did not go well with John’s grandpa, so we left and slept under a bridge and the next day decided to call Russell and Carole, they took us in and fed us, they shared the gospel with us and that night we went to church with them. I was so into what I heard, like my heart was drinking in all that was said, but John was not comfortable he walked out and I noticed that 3 or 4 of the young men about our age followed John out of the church, later I found out they talked to John and prayed with him and ministered to him. The next thing I knew both John and I were kneeling and asking God to forgive us of our sins and to accept us as His own. I totally believed that Jesus was who they said He was.

Two days later John and I were married and then we were baptized. We were like little sponges soaking up Gods word. Three months later Johns’ bronchiolar tube clasped and he went into cardiac arrest, John was 23 years old. He was rushed to the hospital were he was D.O.A., but they revived him and he was on life support where he laid for 3 days. On the third day they stopped the machine and I watched him die for the last time, as he breathed his last breath, a peace flooded me and I knew he was in the arms of the Savior.

Later I spoke to Russell and as we looked back on everything we could see God’s hand everywhere, Russell told me that the day he met us he was called out for a job that’s why he was there, but the load never showed at the meeting area, and the night before he met us he was at church where he heard the Pastor preach on reaching out to strangers…….I am a child of the Living God washed and cleaned by the shed blood of Jesus and set apart. God is so amazing and He loved me before I ever knew Him. I am now part of a family that will never let me go or turn their back on me. I am so thankful to be part of God’s amazing saving grace.

Thursday, 6 January 2011

Hard times

Today was one of those days where I just feel really down about myself. Wasn't sure what exactly caused it but I had a few ideas and was hoping it wasn't a mix of all of them as that would be a mess to sort out!

My only hope was God, and it's a wonderful thing that all I have is Him as He is all I need. He blessed me with the most wonderful verse, softly spoken to my heart in a time of reflection in His Presence.


James 1:2-4 

Trials and Temptations

"Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."
 
Sometimes I fill my life up with so much sin that I need to be emptied and to be built up again and I realised that is what God was doing today. Perfect timing too, as my ministries begin tonight with Football training and an extra long PCY tomorrow!
 
I think if I died and got to choose what my gravestone would say I would have, 'He rocked my world'...because of the way God has changed my life, keeps changing my life and helps me when I am in need :)

Wednesday, 5 January 2011

Love is Faithful!

Since starting this blog I haven't been able to write about football much but in today's post I will at last but there is a much deeper point so keep reading!



Dave Jones has been the manager of Cardiff City, my favourite team, since May 2005. He has done an admirable job keeping the club competitive in one of the top leagues in the world during times of extreme financial difficulty, which has left him having to sell his best players and constantly have to scrape around for bargains in the transfer market. He also got the club to the FA Cup Final for the first time in 81 years in 2008. Many fans regard him as the best manager the club has ever had.

However recently fans have been calling for him to be sacked from his position. Strange eh?
There were changes at the club before this seasons. New billionaire owners came in and have eased the financial constraints and enabled the signing Welsh superstar Craig Bellamy. Expectations have risen and a recent bad run of form (which the club has never dropped lower than 5th and is currently 2nd, on course for automatic promotion) has seen previous unconvinced supporters and newly unconvinced fans call for his head.

I'm constantly amazed at the fickleness & lack of loyalty by people. Not just in sport but in life. Divorce rates are higher than ever before in Britain, for example.

The description of what love is in 1 Corinthians 13 starts with 'Love is patient' and ends with 'It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.'

Whilst many supporters of Cardiff City, husbands & wives are not faithful, God is perfectly faithful.

I amazed by His faithfulness. I mess up so often every day and He could just end my life right now and doesn't. He could have ended Creation right when Adam & Eve messed it all up but didn't. He could have wiped out the moaning & groaning Israelites time & time in the desert for their lack of faithfulness and affront to Him with their golden calve...but led them to the Promised Land eventually. What about the Pharisees, the people Jesus described as 'vipers' and 'sons of hell'. Why didn't God just give up?

I realise it is because God believes in us...even when we don't believe in Him.

2 Timothy 2:13 - if we are faithless, he remains faithful, for he cannot disown himself.

How cool is that? Even we really mess up & really lose track of our faith, God never stops believing in us.

1 John 2:1 - My dear children, I write this to you so that you will not sin. But if anybody does sin, we have an advocate with the Father—Jesus Christ, the Righteous One.

Just as cool, Jesus stands up for us before God when we mess up. The conclusion from this is that God doesn't want to condemn us, He wants to know us and for us to be with Him forever.

John 3:16 is a very well known verse, John 3:17 I find just as amazing and it says this:-

'For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him.'

My closing question is....are you saved? I want to say that nothing is really stopping you from making that choice :)

Tuesday, 4 January 2011

Thought of the Day

This morning saw me back at work after a lovely break for Christmas. My main concern was tiredness having had a few late nights such as Christmas Eve & New Years Eve and I was pretty tired on Monday.

I prayed the night before work and in the morning and despite failing to go to bed early enough again along with not getting a great sleep. I felt great all day!

I felt God speaking to me throughout the day 'Prayer is such an under-utilised tool'.

Tonight we had some friends come around and time for prayer has eroded. I want to make prayer a priority in my life. Anyone want to join me?

Monday, 3 January 2011

Crazy Love!

"Love makes you do crazy things, insane things, things in a million years you wouldn't see yourself doing, but there you are doing them."


 Wicker Park

I would imagine we are all well acquainted with the though that love makes you do crazy things. As my challenge for the Church for 2011 was to love more, it would be great to see if loving people crazily has Biblical basis.

Sometimes our problem is that we love, but we give people only a certain percentage of our love, and it involves so many conditions!

- I will do many things for you but not this, this and definitely not that!
- I will love you when I can be bothered
- I love you but I don't like showing it
- I will love you more when you do nice things to me.

Our problem is that our love is selfish and lazy and we need to kick ourselves hard to put this right in 2011!


- I will do many things for you but not this, this and definitely not that!

Acts 2:44-47

All the believers were together and had everything in common. They sold property and possessions to give to anyone who had need. Every day they continued to meet together in the temple courts. They broke bread in their homes and ate together with glad and sincere hearts, praising God and enjoying the favor of all the people. And the Lord added to their number daily those who were being saved.

Do you have any possessions, time, rituals that you just won't give up to or for anyone? The example of Jesus' disciples is that they shared and gave everything to each other and to others. They put others above themselves. This highlights the Biblical teaching of serving others -

Mark 9:35
Sitting down, Jesus called the Twelve and said, “Anyone who wants to be first must be the very last, and the servant of all.”

- I will love you when I can be bothered

Luke 10:30-35

In reply Jesus said: “A man was going down from Jerusalem to Jericho, when he was attacked by robbers. They stripped him of his clothes, beat him and went away, leaving him half dead. A priest happened to be going down the same road, and when he saw the man, he passed by on the other side. So too, a Levite, when he came to the place and saw him, passed by on the other side. But a Samaritan, as he traveled, came where the man was; and when he saw him, he took pity on him. He went to him and bandaged his wounds, pouring on oil and wine. Then he put the man on his own donkey, brought him to an inn and took care of him. The next day he took out two denarii and gave them to the innkeeper. ‘Look after him,’ he said, ‘and when I return, I will reimburse you for any extra expense you may have.

So helping this man was clearly an inconvenience, because the Priest & Levite couldn't be bothered. These were people who should have helped the man. Not the Samaritan, enemies of the Jews! But this Samaritan went to a great expense to help someone with no promise of repayment or anything in return. Jesus used this as an example of loving a neighbour. To love like Jesus did, we should be making crazy efforts for those who may never repay us or even care about what we have done.

- I love you but I don't like showing it
Mark 10:21
Jesus looked at him and loved him. “One thing you lack,” he said. “Go, sell everything you have and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me.”
John 11:35
Jesus wept. (at Lazarus' death and seeing the grief of his friends, he then went and brought him back to life!)

Don't believe the lie that it is soppy or sad to show people how you feel. Sometimes it is just what people need to be shown that someone cares and that they are loved. Some people have never felt such things. It is very hard sometimes and it isn't always wise to declare your feelings but keep on the lookout for any opportunity you get to bless someone :)

- I will love you more when you do nice things to me.

Romans 5:8
But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

Need I say more?


Sunday, 2 January 2011

Pictures of the Day 2010 review special!

The last few days has given me some time for reflection and thought and I have thought about what the five things are that I will always remember happened in 2010 so here are the pictures to show my five choices, which are in no particular order (edit!)!


Cardiff v Leicester, May 12. This was my birthday and as a present I had tickets to go and see Cardiff play in their big play-off game. If they won overall they got to go to Wembley Stadium to play for a place in the Premier League. They were 1-0 up from the game in Leicester and an incredible topsy turvy game saw us lose 3-2 and go to a penalty shoot out. By this point, I had enjoyed the game so much I didn't care who won and didn't have much faith it would be Cardiff as Cardiff usually let everyone down (which they did a few weeks later at Wembley!). But when the goalkeeper saved the penalty for us to win the shoot-out everyone went nuts and that feeling of elation, shock and emotion was very powerful and beautiful. My best birthday yet!



Next is seeing my friend Kathryn in South Carolina last June! She is one of my sweetest friends and it was such a memorable week. She is one of the most godliest girls I know and I have been blessed to have had her struggle, love, fight, pray and be faithful with me over the last few years.


Next is PCY Camp in August. Just because it is always amazing spending a fun week with some of my favourite teenagers in the world and that I saw God move so much in their lives and I saw how He had moved in mine too. The effects of Camp are still working now and I am looking forward to Camp 2011!

In October we had a weekend away with PCY and that is next on my list. I had never been to Woodcroft Christian Centre before, even though PCY had been many times before. I found it such a beautiful place and I was truly able to relax there. Better still, we had a wonderful weekend of teaching, fellowship and worship and it was wonderful to see real progress in peoples lives.



My last one is developing a great friendship with the girl whose glasses I am sporting above. Her name is Caitlin and she rocks. I can't think of many people who love God more than her and we share so many passions, ideals & lifestysle choices. She is going to do mission work in Spain this year and I hope one of 2011's highlights will be visiting her!

I felt, making this list, that I had almost left out spiritual events but what I realised is that actually God was working through all of this. He isn't just a God who does crazy things in your life on occasions but He is a God who is always there and always working for our good. I am proud above anything that in 2010 I was in relationship with Him, and despite the bad times, it is stronger than ever before.

My hope for 2011 is to know Him more, to love Him more & to serve Him more.

So what are your highlights of 2010?? Let me know in the comments section or on facebook!

Saturday, 1 January 2011

New Years Resolutions

Happy New Year to everyone! 2011 feels good!

I'd like to start by saying that I don't believe in making New Years Resolutions. I believe that if something is important enough then you should do it straight away rather than delay and give yourself excuses for not doing it.

However, I'd like to issue a challenge to everyone for 2011. Let's make 2011 the year of Love.

Love is very important in the Bible. The Bible actually goes very far in declaring its importance:-

1 Corinthians 13:1-3

If I speak in the tongues of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing.

This is a feeling I have, and feel free to disagree or agree in the comments section, that Britain is neglecting loving each other so much these days. I even feel it is missing in the Church as a whole to an extent.

The greatest commandments in the Bible concern love:-

Luke 10:27

He answered, “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind’; and, ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’”

After saying this Jesus was asked who the neighbor was and Jesus told the parable of the Good Samaritan. I love this parable because the Israelites & Samaritans were enemies. Yet when the Israelites was hurt, the Samaritan was the only who would help him. Love in Great Britain is so selfish. People help others for their own gain, or just help those who love them and they might not help them at all (in the parable, people just walked past the Samaritan).

Let's be unselfish with our love this year. Let's help and bless the people who have hurt us, who don't care about us. If we need an example to look too let's look at Jesus. We hurt God so much with our sin, yet He gave His life so we could live.

Let's be liberal with the love in 2011!